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Wednesday, September 20, 2017

Life Experience. 50 Shades of Gray Hair.


So, my original thought on gray hair was to color it until you die or at least up into your 60s. I'm so seriously reconsidering this. (by the way...I'm only 43) I think I had it all wrong. I know I had it all wrong. I'm actually tired of coloring my hair. I can't take it anymore. I bought a box last week of dye and I just couldn't bring myself to do it. It takes time, money, energy that I don't want to give. My hair grows so damn fast that I currently color my hair every three weeks. But honestly, I should be coloring it every two weeks. I mean, really, after two weeks? I have to do it all over again? I finally said no way. I'm done. At least, I think I am. This life experience may all go to shit and end up in the trash. Or I may end up unapologetically happy. I'm hoping for the latter.
 
The thing is....I love my dark brown hair, even as wild as it is. It's who I am. And I put a ton of effort into it.Like really! I can't imagine life without it. It almost feels like I'm about to lose an appendage, have my arm amputated. My hair is so much of who I am. I know. I'm being ridiculous. It's hair. I should get over it. Come on! 

But it's not just that. It also feels like I'm losing my youth. I don't know if I can face it. Everything I do is anti aging on some level. I work really hard on trying to keep my skin looking good and my hair healthy. Maybe I don't want to admit I have kids that are that old with gray hair. Am I giving up? Am I really this old?

Life seriously has me contemplating this month.
My life is completely about to change.
And I don't know if I'm ready.
But that's for another day and another blog post. 

What's my inspiration to get me through this? I saw this picture. I didn't know who it was until I did some digging. Her name is Anika Von Holdt. I can only hope for gray hair this beautiful. 


So here's the deal. Right now, I'm going to grow out my gray and keep my hair long and see how it goes. I might get highlights of gray. I might get it completely dyed silver. That's pretty trendy right now. Or I might just let it grow and see what happens. Don't worry, I'll keep you up to date on my journey. Check back! It might get ugly.

Want to know and see more on my journey? Watch my YouTube video.



Photos at 4 weeks grow out.
I can't believe I'm doing this! I have so much silver growth on the side of my head it looks like I'm balding. Reality is... I have a ton.





Anybody up for joining me?

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